Reflections of a Mail Man

The Bag







Across the street from Mrs. Chow's house, by the hedge, I noticed the bag.  It was a brown fabric bag. At first I thought, where is the world going now, garbage and stuff left in the streets, nasty! As planned I delivered the bunch of letters for Mrs. Chow.   As I was coming down the stairs, my eyes went back to the bag.  Curiosity took over and I crossed the street cautiously checking both ways beforehand, making sure nobody was watching.

The hidden camera idea crossed my mind as I was approaching the bag.  I looked down both sides of the street and at the houses around, just to make sure again that nobody was watching.  In my business being observant is a skill that I’ve developed over the years.  I picked the bag up with my left hand and noticed that it was heavy, like full of papers I thought. 

The bag had long leather handles, the fabric was brown with flowers, nothing new or in fashion. It was more like an old lady’s bag, I thought. I put it back on the ground and pushed the bag with the letters with my elbow as I was crouched to open the brown bag.  I slide the zipper and my eyes froze at the sight of the pile of money.  Stacks of 100 dollar bills!

Blood rushed to my head and a shiver ran through my body, like only the shivers that run through when a person is up to no good, I thought. Still crouching I lifted my face one more time and looked from one side of the street to the other.   I was thinking what in the hell is this bag full of 100 dollar bills doing sitting in the street with nobody around.  Slowly I stood up, carrying the bag with my left hand I continued walking towards where I had parked my car earlier that morning.

Shaughnessy was an affluent neighbourhood in the city.  Larger homes were characteristic of the area.  Nicely painted in yellows, greys, and a few browns with black trim.  Very seldom did you see people walking in the streets at that time of the day, except for few old ladies walking their dogs.  I was sure I knew them all by first name.  That day was grey, it was spring and the air felt fresh with the sweet smell of Jasmine.  All the lawns were meticulously mowed and there was no sign of anything out of place in the perfectly landscaped yards.

When I reached the car, I opened the trunk.  I felt excited, very excited I should say, and confused.  I was trying to think what the sensible thing was to do.   My memories were sliding through every event I remembered involving people finding a bag of cash. I deposited the bag in the trunk and closed it as I looked around for somebody following or watching me.

I leaned my back on the driver’s side door, I wanted to smoke, have a drink or take a leak.  I realized that I was beyond nervous although I knew I had to act calm and easy as usual.  I was thinking about what to do with the still half full bag letters that were due to be delivered.   Should I deliver? Should I run….?

I decided to finish my day, which would give me time to think.  I walked back to the street where I had found the bag and finished delivering the mail at the same pace as every day.  As usual, I didn’t see anybody. I returned to the car, stuffed my jacket and empty mail bag in the back seat and, as usual, got in and drove home.

As I turned south onto Oak Street, a policeman flagged me down to stop.  “License and registration," he said looking at my eyes.  I handed him the papers without saying a word.  He walked awfully slowly to the back of my car and then got into his car that was parked at the corner. “What the hell is this policeman doing here,” I said to myself, "Does he know that I have a bag of money in my trunk?  Should I say something about it?"

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself, I remembered.   The policeman is doing his job, following his routine, “calm down Elliot,” I said to myself. It seemed like an eternity when finally the policeman returned to the car, handed me the papers and said, “thank you, have a good day sir.” I put the registration away in the glove compartment resisting my instinct to fly away quickly.  I took my time, shaking, started the car and drove away slowly.  I passed this one, I reassured myself.  Nobody knows about that money….uufff…I was sweating.

At home finally, I couldn’t wait to see how much money was in the brown bag.  I dumped it on my bed and then proceeded to clean the night table and organize the stacks one on top of the other.  As it turned out there was around 2.5 million dollars and the bills looked real to me…..

I went to the kitchen to make myself some tea.  Harley was following me around, happy to see me. I was way too excited to say hi to Harley when I came in, I knelt down to pet Harley.  He looked at me happy.  “Today is our lucky day….I have found a bag full of money,” “our life is about to change," I whispered to him.

I had been a mail man since I was 20.  I chose this job for many reasons, one of them being that I would have lots of time to myself, nobody checking on me and I would get to walk outside. During these 18 years in the job I have had time to think, man! lots of thinking. In my free time I like to stay home, enjoy Harley’s company, drink tea, read and occasionally watch TV. 

The house is small but quite comfortable, I have been renting it since I started delivering mail.

Among my favourite things to think about, what would I do when I retire, where would I go?  Now it came in handy, having planned so many alternatives. Although it would have come in handy to have someone to bounce ideas off of.  I never married, I wondered why. I have had a few girlfriends for short periods of time.  I don’t like to dance and certainly I don’t like to go for walks on the weekends.  I guess I am more of a hermit than anything.  I never found a girl with the same likes as me, quiet and simple.

I packed the money back in the bag and tucked it in the attic. I could not read that day, I was hungry so I cooked a pot of rice with extra veggies and I grilled a chicken breast. I opened a bottle of wine to quietly celebrate my finding.  I will work until I get my holidays in August and then go down to Mexico to live.  How will I bring the money? I started planning my retirement.

During dinner, I made up my mind that I was going to take a direct flight to Mazatlan to avoid entering the US.  There was a risk of being caught with the cash, and they could presume it was drug money.  Whose money was it actually? I didn’t want to go there.  I was busy planning my escape.  Once in Mexico it would be easy to live like I have here, low profile.  I didn’t have any luxurious dreams apart from being by the water, fishing and perhaps sailing…why not.

The time flew. I gave notice to Mrs. Jones.  She was surprised that I was leaving.  I told her that a distant relative in the East had asked me to come to live with him, he needed my company.  I gave notice at work as well, everybody seemed quite surprised, I told them the same story.  I told the few friends I had the same, everybody seemed quite surprised. From time to time I checked on the bag, just to make sure everything was fine.

I booked the tickets for that Wednesday in August.  I paid with my Visa. I picked Mazatlan because it is a tourist destination that is low key.  20 years ago it was “the” Mexican place to go and now, not very many people went there. Perfect I thought. I sold most of my furniture and packed my books and the things I wanted to keep in storage. I had to throw away lots of junk that I had collected over the years.

As the day approached my stomach was feeling empty, I felt light and afraid. The summer was hot and finally my last day of work came. My colleagues gave me a small party at the office, hugs and the traditional good wishes and keep in touch requests.  Nobody knew that I was going to Mexico.

Two days before taking off to Mexico I had to return the house to Mrs. Jones, she was sad.  I thanked her for everything she had done for me, well…by the way I have paid for your house! I reflected.  I moved to a small hotel nearby where I stayed watching my bag.  Everywhere I went I brought the bag with me.  I was afraid that somebody would steal it.

On the morning of my departure I called a cab and drove to the airport, I was taking a suitcase, Harley's kennel and the brown bag.  At the airport everything went well, they asked me to put the brown bag with the cargo.  I thanked them but denied, I would rather bring it with me. I had rehearsed my face going through security for weeks and what I would say if they asked me what was in the bag.

I got my boarding pass, thanked the attendant and headed to security.  I was nervous, I felt my blood leaving my face.  I walked to the officer with my boarding pass in hand, carrying the brown bag and Harley’s kennel.  The security person checked my boarding pass and took a look at Harley, he was so good, curious and quiet.  My hands were sweating, she noticed. “I’m afraid of planes,” I said quietly.

I placed Harley’s kennel where she pointed out and the brown bag on the belt for the X-Ray scanner.  I put my shoes, belt, watch, pen and the loose change I had in my pocket in the tray, behind I put the brown bag and pushed them into the machine.  I waited for the security person to let me go under the arch.  I needed a bathroom, I was sweating cold!  She indicated me to go and I did, nothing happened.  As I was turning to the belt to pick up my things, the security person behind the X-Ray machine called me as I was grabbing the brown bag. “What is in here,” she asked. “Books," I said. “I am going to have to open it,” she pulled the zipper and opened the bag.  I was frozen! I didn't look directly at her, I was about to faint.

“Are you feeling alright?” she asked me. “No…not really,” I said.  “I am really afraid…the planes…I need to go to the bathroom,” I blabbed quietly. “Nothing to worry about sir,” she said, "planes are quite safe nowadays, nothing to worry!” She looked into the bag, put her gloved hands into it and lifted her head and smile. “You are good to go….have a good trip and relax…enjoy your holidays”.

My body was about to explode, I smiled back and said thanks.  I quietly and slowly picked up the brown bag and Harley's kennel.  As I walked out of the room I could feel the drops of water running down my back.  Picking up the pace, I looked for the nearest bathroom.  I was through, next stop Mexico. I checked on Harley, he was fine, he was my company.

In the bathroom, I thought, one more hoop and we are done…the Mexican authorities, once I cross that I am done.  I felt hungry and thirsty, I stopped for a sandwich and pop at Tim Horton’s. I got a glass with water for Harley.  We were set for the plane, I had bought two seats one for me and the other for Harley.  In the plane the friendly attendants from Westjet were cracking jokes.  I was entertained.  I was seated by the window.

As the plane started rolling down the tarmac, my stomach contracted one more time. I didn’t pay much attention to what the attendant was saying into the microphone, I was magnetized looking out the window.  I placed the brown bag underneath the seat.  The pilot put full throttle and the plane began its frenetic run until it got smooth and the nose pointed up, we took off.  The ground started changing, the view was different, new.  At times the plane would start shaking, like if we had gone from a very smooth road to a dirt one with bumps and then smooth again.

During the flight I reviewed my life, I wondered about the choices I had made, leaving my parents house at age 16, choosing to be a mail man, not having a partner or having the freedom of not having one, the absence of kids, somebody to teach what I’ve learned. My walks, the people I met during the 18 years delivering their mail, how their kids grew, the people that moved in, the ones that move out, the house renovations, the new cars, the changes in the weather, all that I knew was already behind. My house, my yard, my seat.  All that I had, was in the bag and Harley’s kennel beside me.

Five and one half hours later we were landing in Mazatlan. It was noticeably hotter than Vancouver. The faces were foreign to me, the colors much more intense, and the noise much more loud.  I walked to the immigration booth, the officer asked me how long was I coming for and I said, “long sir”.  He stamped my passport and let me in, next stop customs.  This time I was relaxed, I had nothing to fear but fear itself.  I handed my declaration to the officer and he checked Harley’s kennel, my suitcase and my brown bag.  “What do you have in here sir?” he asked, “books,” I said, “books”.  I went through.  It was hot, the big light brown tiles of the floor, the high ceilings and the numerous people around me, all shouting, it was my home, my new home.

Days later when I rented a little house in “Barras de Piaxtla”, a small fishing village of around 450 people one hour north of Mazatlan. Although they have electricity and running water, the people here live much as they have done for hundreds of years, fishing and ranching.  Many of the houses are still made from small sticks cut from the local woods and woven into walls.

In my little house I was unpacking the few things I brought, I took out the books I had in my brown bag, and carefully place them in the shelves in the living room.  Inside of them, carved, was the money.  I reflected that the best way to pass my treasure through customs was inside the books.  I sighed and I headed to the beach, I was going fishing, it was my new job.